Milestones: crawl, walk, run and finally soar!

For days, weeks, I had emotions that were so on edge I would cry at the drop of a hat and felt so vulnerable and afraid ..tried running to sweets to numb those feelings! an resulta? eto mei tonsillitis ako! have high grade fever, have difficulty swallowing pte yun voice ko e altered na! yikes! bed bound ako! I just realized yun energy expenditure necessary for self care ay nde biro, feeling ko nga nag-deconditioned nko e, joke! been like this for almost 3 days now..but i’m much much better now, thank God!

God is really good, kse He reassured moi that He holds my future. And just like these flowers, we never got the chance to see while seed plan sya na mag-b-bloom sya ng ganyan. Yes, we have our part in making it grow like watering (LOL ) pro He sends in the sun and makes the soil just right for that flower to bloom and that of course is out of our control na, agree!?! And same thing din with the things that lies around the corner, that in itself is out of our control na and He has promised to take care of us every day and that of course includes every new door down the road pte sa lhat ng ‘unknown tomorrow’s’.

the h**l sa sasabihin ng iba, call it as they see it! an mahalaga nagun yun sinasbe ng family ko at lalo na an Diyos ko sa akin. Now, I can only walk by faith one day at a time and have decided to leave everything safely in His hands.

The intense and long-lasting care and nursing of females towards their offsprings only reflects His heart towards us. No matter what situation we may be in, regardless of how we’re feeling at the moment it doesn’t change the fact that He loves us perfectly and we’re never beyond the reach of His love! a lot of times i wanted my questions to have it answered by Him at ‘face value’..pro nde na mahalaga yun kse His grace enables me to believe! and that grace will carry me through every single solitary day in my life..hehe..buti nlan He puts up with me even in my hard-headed ways! LOL! =)

i won’t pretend that i perfectly understand His love, mercy and grace and never will..now - I ONLY STAND AMAZED!

He reveals Himself and His Glory through creation..

Creation Calls

by Brian Doerksen

I have felt the wind blow,
Whispering your name
I have seen your tears fall,
When I watch the rain.
How could I say there is no God?
When all around creation calls!!
A singing bird, a mighty tree,
The vast expanse of open seas

(Musical interlude)
I believe just like a child
(Choir I believe..)

I believe
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bKZ9woP2KEQ

(Refrain)

Gazing at a bird in flight,
Soaring through the air.
Lying down beneath the stars,
I feel your presence there.

I love to stand at ocean shore
And feel the thundering breakers roar,
To walk through golden fields of grain
With endless bloom horizons fray.

Listening to a river run,
Watering the Earth.
Fragrance of a rose in bloom,
A newborns cry at birth.

(Refrain)

I love to stand at ocean shore
And feel the thundering breakers roar,
To walk through golden fields of grain
With endless bloom horizons fray

I believe
I believe
I believe

(Interlude)

I believe
I believe

I’m tired of goin’ round and round in circles! The scenarios maybe of different presentation pro iisa lang yun pinaka-’heart!’ ngfi2dget or squirm ako with my hands or feet when I have to sit down for a long time and figure things out! (Dx: ADHD!??!!! hehehe)

I have learned to believe that He has something to say lge - amidst our trials, testings, triumph, despair, pain, longing at sa kun ano-ano pa! Not unless matutunan nten yun dpat matutunan nde cguro matatapos yun dpat ay natapos na sna kun natuto lang tyo agad. sigh..

I am tired of figuring out everything, I’m learning to trust the One Who knows all things and to accept that some questions may never be answered. I know I’m in the process of training. There had to be a time for training cuz He uses times of waiting to stretch my (our) faith in Him, and to bring about change and growth in my (our) life (lives)..had to go through some very trying situations at i have no other choice but to SUBMIT & OBEY - for in that change I’ll be more mature, solid, at well rounded.

This training period  simply requires me to do what He tells me to do when He tells me to do it..without questioning or trying to figure out everything, khet na nde ko gets yun RATIONALE, go lang! ;’p

During one of my ‘windang‘ days Ptr. baba Derrick (luvU baba, bunch of thanks!) told me this astounding truth and i quote: "..And in God’s will, there is no sense of time. 2 yrs is like a day when your heart is not resisting but submitting." Whoa! natauhan po ako nun! And up until this day i can hear him saying it, un bang nag-eecho pa un truth na yun! And the word SUBMITTING appears before me as if it was on the mother of all billboards in Edsa, in bold letters ha! sigh..

I’m learning to trust that God is doing the very best for me in my present season and in ‘due’ time after ’sowing’..’reaping’ nman! haha! ;’p

"Due time" is His time when He knows we’re ready, not when we think we’re ready..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vr0hP5pj6kI

Check this out..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=imrSL7yWhEA

I’m not a PDA fanatic..nag-minister lang sken ‘tong song..

Question!

Which of the following behavior/s you exhibit while waiting?

a. Excited & get into it immediately.

b. Wait for “convenient season” (hold back until it won’t cost anything or be so difficult).

c. _______________________ (fill in the blanks)

d. _______________________ (fill in the blanks)

What if mei delay?

a. Will you move ahead of Him?

b. Will you quarrel with Him?

c. Will you grumble with Him?

d. _______________________ (fill in the blanks)

e. _______________________ (fill in the blanks)

Here are some of the numerous examples of people who, one way or the other waited:

• Noah - 600 y/o when the flood waters came (Gen. 7:6).

            - 150 days on the ark (Gen 7:24).

• Abraham - 100 y/o when Isaac was born (Gen. 21:5).

• Jacob - 14 years: 7 years in return for Rachel’s hand, but was deceived by Laban & gave Leah, Rachel’s older sister instead (Gen. 29:25).

                          : another 7 years in return for Rachel’s hand (Gen. 29:27).

• Israelites - 40 years in the wilderness (Deut. 1:2).

• David - Samuel anointed David (1 Sam. 16:13); David anointed over Judah (2 Sam. 2:4).

• Solomon - Spent 7 years in building the temple (1 Kings 6:38).

• Joshua - 6 days marched around the walls of Jericho (Joshua 6:3).

٭At 3 y/o the child understands the concept of WAITING.

Q: Why all these examples, pra ano pa?

A: pra i-emphasize, reiterate na nde lang ikaw nor ako ang naghihintay in just about anything sa mundong ibabaw. Malinaw man o hindi ang sagot sa question na “WHEN?” the bottom line is THEY ALL WAITED & Jesus Himself waited too, tyo pa kya! Let’s learn their ways pte sa mga missteps nla matuto din tyo.

It is fairly to be excited when He first speaks to us & give us an opportunity to do something. But we never finish what we started for the reason that we get into it & realize there is more involve than goose bumps and excitement. Basically LAHAT ng bago ay exciting, right!?! Pro yun excitement will only carry us along for a while & it will not take us across the finish line.

Instead of taking matters into our own hands we must learn to wait on Him patiently. Dhel if we move ahead of Him we deliberately disobey Him. Whatever we sow, we shall reap(Gal. 6:7)—disobedience begets consequences & btw don’t expect Him to take care of our Ishmael’s!

I could go on & on but the point is simply this: “WHAT REALLY COUNTS IS YUNG BEHAVIOR NTEN DURING THE PROCESS OF WAITING!” As for me life is a matter of CHOICES and sbe nga ni Joyce Meyer: “Let’s learn to enjoy where we are while we are on our way to where we are going .”

There is a time for everything, & a season for every activity under heaven (Ecc. 3:1).

He has made everything beautiful in its time (Ecc. 3:11).

Into your hand
i commit again
with all I am
for you Lord

you hold my world
in the palm of your hand
and I’m yours forever

CHORUS
Jesus I believe in you
Jesus I belong to you
you’re the reason that I live
the reason that I sing
with all I am

I’ll walk with you
wherever you go
through tears and joy
I’ll trust in you

and I will live
in all of your ways and
your promises forever

CHORUS

I will worship I will worship you forever
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lpSWgBIoAc

Settings:

on the the northeastern part of the Arabian Peninsula, the United Arab Emirates is bordered by Kingdom of Saudi Arabia and the Sultanate of Oman to the east and north. This place has a sub-tropical, arid climate and sunny blue skies, and a high temperature can be expected most of the year.

http://maps.google.com/maps?f=q&hl=en&q=United+Arab+emirates&ie=UTF8&om=1&z=5&ll=25.878994,54.711914&spn=18.755669,43.945312

Feels that the battle seems endless and you think you’ll ever make it?

It is indeed easy to give up..it takes faith to go through. There was one season, but not so long ago na i felt that the battle is endless and too difficult for me, mei mga times din na thoughts like "I couldn’t seem to believe much of anything anymore" was getting the best of me.

Not until one liberating day (naks!) I made a quality decision that I am going to get my mind renewed  and chose to think that I am going to make it. Not only must I choose but, must also decide not to quit. Bombarded with doubts and fears i must take a stand and say "He’s on my side and is helping me."

Let’s not give up until victory is complete and we have taken possession of our rightful inheritance!

Let’s learn to decide to BELIEVE. God oftens gives us faith for the things that our mind just can’t always seem to come into agreement with..wwwwwaaaahhhhhhhh…hehehehe..sigh.. The mind wants to understand EVERYTHING—the WHY, the WHEN, and the HOW of it all. Often, when that understanding is not given by God, the mind refuses to believe what it cannot understand. It frequently happens that we know something in our hearts but our minds wars against it.

Bsta decide to BELIEVE even when the going gets tough! Tsaka hold on lang lge.. (thanks ‘te Aps for the encouragement! luv kta!)

When I see you smile
I can face the world
You know that I can do anything
When I see you smile...

Sometimes I wonder
How I'd ever make it through
Through this world without having you
I just wouldn't have a clue

Cause sometimes it seems like this world's closing in on me
And there's no way of breaking free
Then I see you reach out for me

Sometimes I wanna give up
Wanna give in
Wanna quit the fight
Then one look at you baby
Can make everything alright, make everything alright

When I see you smile
I can face the world
Oh you know that I can do anything (i can do anything)
When I see you smile
I see a ray of light
Oh I see it shining right through the rain (shining right through the rain)
When I see you smile
Baby when I see you smile at me

And baby there's nothing in this world that could ever do
What the touch of your hand can do
It's like nothing that I ever knew

And when the rain is falling
I don't feel it
Cause you're here with me
And one look at you baby
It's all that I ever need
All that I ever need

When I see you smile
I can face the world
Oh you know that I can do anything (i can do anything)
When I see you smile
I see a ray of light
Oh I see it shining right through the rain (shining right through the rain)
When I see you smile baby
Baby when I see you smile at me

And when the rain is falling
I don't feel it
Cause you're here with me
And one look at you baby
It's all that I ever need
All that I ever need

When I see you smile
I can face the world
Oh you know that I can do anything (i can do anything)
When I see you smile
I see a ray of light
Oh I see it shining right through the rain (shining right through the rain)

When I see you smile
I can face the world
Oh you know that I can do anything

When i see you smile
Baby when i see you smile at me

When i see you smile
(baby when i see you smile)
When i see you smile
(at me)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ugTPZeo3Lps

The way to develop hind’s feet (a hind is an animal that can climb a mountain swiftly) is to WALK (not stand in terror, but to walk) and make (spiritual) progress upon the high places (of troubles, sufferrings or resposibility). Habakkuk 3:19

-by Joyce Meyer

I’ve had tons of setbacks, bad and rough days..I cry awhile after I have fallen but I get back up and dust myself off and start again. I also make mistake..but atleast that is one mistake I won’t have to make again.

I choose to believe that He is working in me no matter what I may feel or how the situation may look, He will bring me into full completion! wink!